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Miserable

Hey all,
Yesterday, I had a scan because I've been having symptoms such as night sweats, abdominal pain and loss of appetite. The scan was clear yesterday, which probably begs the question, why am I miserable?

I guess my brother's birthday is a terrible day for me, every year, because I blame myself for him being born too early. That obviously doesn't make any sense, and I know that, but I never got to be his annoying big sister or teach him how to play basketball. And I've never got past it, and this was 8 years ago.

I've never told anyone this, except my mom, but I guess now is as good a time as any.
Right after I found out that I had cancer, I thought to myself, looks like i'll be seeing my brothers sooner that I thought.
I was kind of hoping that maybe they could send me a picture or a card explaining why everything has happened, but that didn't work out.

To add to my depression, anytime I try to talk to my best friend, she's busy, surprise, surpris…

An Unforgettable Experience

This past weekend I had an end of chemo/ #kaylakickedkancerskeister party which I was dreading almost as much as I dreaded chemo, okay, maybe not that much. But I was so worried about the amount of people attending the party, that it caused a huge pit in my stomach.

I'm not sure what I worried about, because the party was a huge hit. It lasted for almost 8 hours and the music pumped until the very last second as the fire died down. I even had a huge surprise from a few of my elementary school classmates. I had invited one of my old teammates and friend who I just recently got back in contact with and it turned out that a few of my old classmates wanted to celebrate with me, so about 8 showed up which meant more than they'll ever know.

The fact that even after I transferred last year, they still care about me. I will never forget this. It's a story I will tell my kids because they deserve to have friends just like mine.

In other good news, I finally started talking to my be…