Showing posts from May, 2015

A Little Bit of Good News

Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I've been spending most of free time sleeping or feeling depressed.

I have a little bit of good news to share. Two weeks ago I finished chemo and yesterday I found eyebrow stubble. If you think that sounds weird, you are extremely right. But the good news doesn't stop there. After a good half-way PET scan result, it is recommended that you have just a CT scan at the end of chemo. Otherwise you could start chasing something that actually isn't cancer but that lights up because of high activity, such as the brain or the heart. The doctors are pretty sure that the cancer is gone, but we have to wait until the CT scan to confirm that. But just because the cancer is gone, doesn't mean I'm suddenly all better. It will take anywhere from 3-6 months for me to feel back to normal.
So now that I'm recovering Mortimer Dorkus. My doctors and I are trying to figure out ways for my constant headache to be relieved. For those o…

:( It Only Makes Me Stronger

I'm very sorry I haven't posted in awhile. But I've been having serious back, stomach and shoulder pain. So to any of you whom have been worried, I am okay in the sense that I'm not in the hospital or worse.

Lately I've been feeling lonely and depressed. It makes sense that I've been depressed because anyone going through this should be somewhat depressed or there's something else wrong with them. Not to mention the face that I've had a history of depression. But you'd think I shouldn't feel lonely because of all the support I'v been getting. But the problem is that the people closest to me have taken a few steps away from me. Some of my friends have been hit hard by this. I get that, I really do, but I don't get to runaway from this so neither should they. I feel alone, separated from even my own family. I feel like I'm the odd one out, like I'm a square block trying to fit into the circle hole. I just can't seem to understan…