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Mortimer Dorkus Has Been Awoken

Earlier this week my life changed in an instant. I was diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma, a curable cancer in the lymphatic system. To say this was a shock is a huge understatement. At first I didn't know what to say or do, it may have been the first time I was ever speechless. But now I've sort of been in denial, like if I don't say it, it's not happening. And when I do tell people, I don't feel any connection to the words. I'm just going through the motions. People ask me what they can do and I don't know how to answer because it just doesn't feel real.

My biggest fear was how I would tell my friends and that they'd suddenly treat me differently. But I learned that you just have to come out and say it. I texted my best friend to see if we could talk, sooner rather than later. At that point, I'm pretty sure a million different scenarios went though her head, none of them what really happened. She replied asking why I couldn't just text …

Four Month Check-up

Hey guys!
On Monday, I went for one of my many check-up appointments and CT scans. There were two lymph nodes found, but there is no worry about them due to their outline. It was so good to see the doctor and all the nurses after a few months, like a family reunion. There were new nurses who i had never seen before, but old faces who made me smile during the three and a half hours i was there.

I have finally gotten my College Years blog up and running. Sorry for the delay. Concussion therapy 6 times a week really takes up time and causes significant amounts of fatigue. On the first post of the new blog, I posted my Odyssey articles, which I'll do here as well.

1.  Summer Fun

2. To The Girl Hiding Behind A Mask

3.  To The Girl Who Feels Like She Doesn't Belong

4. To My Fellow Cancer Survivors

5. Rhythmic Lyrics

6. Things You Learn When You Graduate From High School

7.12 Days Of Christmas: Hallmark Style

If you have any ideas of articles let me know, I sometimes have trouble fig…

Checking Out

Hey guys,
It's been over a month since I've started college and I've decided that I love it here, most of the time. Now, not so much since I'm dealing with my 5th concussion. I want to write about everything that's happening here, but i don't want to pile it up with stuff about cancer since it's a different chapter of my life. Also, I don't want to get rid of any of my cancer posts because sometimes I need a reminder of how strong I am.
I will be continuing posts through college on another blog at It's working title is the college years and I hope to have a post up by this weekend, if i can manage to sit at the computer for more than five minutes without feeling like my head's going to explode. I will continue to have updates on my scans and all that stuff on this blog still.

Before I go, I want to share a video with you that brightens my day, no matter what.

Much love,    Kayla

A Week Into College

Hi guys!With the school year in full swing, I figured I needed to update you. I have been on Susquehanna University's campus for exactly one week and one day. The campus is small, but has beautiful trees and landscaping. It's so peaceful despite everyone hustling to and from classes or to get food. I haven't gotten lost at all. *knock on wood 
The food here tastes really good to me, my roommate, on the other hand, would probably disagree, at least when it comes to dining hall food. Luckily, there are places all over to eat. Food court style in the campus center, panera-like in the science building, and many more I am still exploring. 
A huge question people have asked is how I like my roommates. Yes, I have two in the size room designed for two people, so it's very crowded. I am deathly afraid of heights, yet I am sleeping on a loft bed over the dresses and struggle to climb in and out of bed everyday. It's become a running joke between me, my roommates and anyone we…

Officially Summer

Hey everyone!
Thanks to everyone who has stuck around, and read every dreary and depressing word throughout the past two and a half years. Having lived it, I'm aware of how awful it all sounds.

Three months post Hawaii trip, which was incredible, and I only have two months before I leave for college. Luckily, I am going to Susquehanna University which is roughly an hour and a half away from my house. I will be studying journalism and sports media as well, hopefully. My dad wants me to minor in business, but I'm not interested in it at all. I never have been. Anything with math or set hours is not up my alley. But with journalism and sports media, you might see me on ESPN in a few years, my life goal.
About a month and a week ago, I had one of the best nights of my very short life. I went to prom with the best date ever, don't tell my cousin or best friend. He looked absolutely amazing and his tie matched my dress so perfectly that we looked like a real couple, which some p…

Hawaii Baby

Hey everyone(Aloha!)
It has been almost a year since I last wrote and things have changed big time, mostly for the better.
First of all, all my scans have been clear and I am almost feeling like a normal teenager. I am going to prom in a few weeks, maybe with a date, he still hasn't given me a definitive answer. Last year, along with my best friend and my cousin, we devoured an entire cheesecake.
In September i got a job at Kohl's and I absolutely love it! I work roughly 12 hours a week, give or take. All of my coworkers are super nice and make sure I'm taken care of. It also helped with my anxiety, so now when i go to work I don't even worry anymore.
This year is my senior year, meaning I have applied to eight different schools for sports journalism and hopefully a minor in creative writing. I have been accepted at five schools thus far, and from that my top choice would be Susquehanna University. I was also very impressed with Syracuse, and i could see myself there, if …

(Memory)al Day Weekend

I'm coming to you live from a hotel filled to the brim with basketball players in a town with a lot of roundabouts and fancy grocery shops. Yes, we are in full AAU swing, which means traveling every other weekend and sleeping on uncomfortable sofas, that is if I get any sleep at all with my brother and sister's snoring topped only by being kicked and hit in the head repeatedly. That brings us to now as I write this at 6:30 am on a Saturday, which is practically the middle of the night for any teenager who enjoys her beauty rest. I've actually been up for the past three and a half hours, watching Netflix and trying, with no success, to fall back to sleep. My neck is stiff, my back is in dire need of a chiropractor, and Miley Cyrus' Party in the USA is playing through my headphones, so not everything is going badly.

Being here, getting ready to watch my brother play basketball in a few hours, brings back memories, good and bad, of long drives and fast food as well as horr…

Back at it Again

Hey readers!
Yes, i know, you're all so happy to here from me. But please, save the applause for the end.

Here i am, back at hershey, doing my thing, have surgery and chilling in a hospital bed. But don't worry, i'm just having an endoscopy for the stomach pain i've been having for the past six months. Same old boring life.

Except over the weekend, my boring life got a little bone chilling. No i didn't spend the night in a haunted house like those idiots in horror movies. I did however see some of my old classmates, who some may refer to as jerks and a little worse.

My old school had a minithon, in support of the Four Diamonds fund, which is based at Hershey Med, to help kids and families dealing with cancer. I was lucky enough to get to speak on behalf of Four Diamonds. It was unforgettable and a lot scary. On the bright side, i got to hang with my little cousin, whose not so little anymore and some old teammates. MiniThon Speech

I hope you enjoyed the video, my dad i…